Midnight Musings

When I was in grammar school, I was friends with a girl, and we were assigned to work on a project together... and I went to her house, and I noticed that she had a large mug full of multicolored candy canes. Not just red and white; blue and dark blue, red and orange, etc. So I thought I'd ask her for one. Her mom said, "Sure, take as many as you want." And from there, I kept going over to her house just to get more candy canes.

Why am I telling you this? I've just been musing on how as a kid I kept clinging to pursuits where, at the time, I thought I'd be set for life and happy as a clam if I could just fulfill them. A pursuit such as acquiring candy canes and eating them late at night alone in my room. Yes, that's what I would do. (That's also what began my now routine bad habit of eating late at night). Or I'll think to myself that if I can just get a certain video game, I'll be set, and nothing else will matter. And then I realize just how stupid, pointless, and futile these pursuits were... and are. Just like every time you take a shower, the tub kinda fills with nice, warm frothy water, but every time, it all drains away, and the tub is left empty and cold with you shivering in it. That's how I find myself feeling these days. Like I drift from one meaningless pursuit to the next but I'm always empty and cold inside. It bothers me. I'm worried that I'll wind up settling into some kind of boring, routine lifestyle and not satisfy any of my inner hungers.

A girl I once knew wanted to become a missionary. Her life would NEVER be boring, and it would have a very strong purpose and she'd be making something of herself. Not that I'd ever want to be a missionary, as anyone who knows my standpoints will tell you, but that's the kind of life that is exciting and meaningful... I want to do something like that gives those same feelings. I don't just want to graduate, get a desk job and then die. But I dunno what to DO. What steps can I take? When I was younger everything was so simple. My job was to go to school. But now that I'm entering the real world it's just so overwhelming... I'm scared, I really am. I don't want to beg for advice, but if anyone has any suggestions, please email me. Streetgamer1984@gmail.com.

AHEM! After the melodrama, how can I entertain you this evening? Well... I'm working on a story where Wario uses his Telmet to get on all the popular TV shows and become world famous. If you've played Wario The Seven (Wario: Master of Disguise) then you know exactly what I'm talking about. First up is "Who Yearns To Be A Billionaire" and then a ripoff of "The Simpsons" or Family Guy, titles changed appropriately.

Finally, I got the Brain Age games. They're cruel. They put my brain's age at 65. I don't think that's true. Plus I tried the Sudoku... that puzzle game is EVIL! I hates it!

Ok folks, good morning!